MY DREAM AND VISION\
MY DREAM
To go around the world taking dance classes and performing all around in concerts in musicals or any other dance conference and performances.. that's my dream it's not easy to attain it but i will try... -)))
MY VISION
Using dance to transform youth not only through teaching skills but instill life long values that is going to help them succeed in life.
Giving them a purpose and helping them to realize it ..
ROMANS 12:2
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of god.."
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people says in order to survive in the dance industry u got to be the best..be at the top..
i am not there yet partly cuz of ..
my laziness...
or rather lack of discipline..
or me not stepping out of my comfort zone..
but guys i tried... i really tried......and things just don't work out the way i want it to be...
seeing my batch of dancers becoming prominent instructors
younger batches becoming good and strong dancers...
and me stuck here not moving on....
i feel devastated...
why am i always the 2nd choice???
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am going to NS this year.. there is still not much big breakthroughs in my dance that can determine that i will still dance even when i finish NS.
I dread NS not because of the tough training and all..
i am just afraid when i finish .. what can i do??
currently i spent 80 percent of my life teaching dance and performing and learning..
now i got to stop .. stop everything for 2 years..
am worry about what lies in the future...
what is my full time career??
will i have to give up this passion of mine which i took up for so long???
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
A TYPICAL DAY
GOSH TUESDAY IS SUCHA LONG DAY FOR ME
3 lectures in total
6 hours altogether
and all 3 is a lot a lot of theory...
i am lagging behind in macroecons !!! help!!!
and baby can spent money in a single glance...
she just bought a new vaio laptop!!!scary**
but i still love her =)
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pray that i will get enlist to police..
pray that my syf choreo will work out well
pray for a word to support this vision of mine...
GOSH TUESDAY IS SUCHA LONG DAY FOR ME
3 lectures in total
6 hours altogether
and all 3 is a lot a lot of theory...
i am lagging behind in macroecons !!! help!!!
and baby can spent money in a single glance...
she just bought a new vaio laptop!!!scary**
but i still love her =)
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pray that i will get enlist to police..
pray that my syf choreo will work out well
pray for a word to support this vision of mine...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
A DANCING DAY
Just same back from Ryan's lyrical & la course and am now doing my stretching...
YES I AM DOING MY STRETCHING!!!
Its been so long since i last really stretch, i have the discipline for anything but NOT stretching as its really really painful for me haha..I was born with short hands short legs short nerve etc etc hahah but still i believe i can be a better dancer than what i am now that why i really need to go for classes to strengthen my foundation extend my lines..
I really like learning from Ryan. In his course he don't just teach choreography but spend time to body condition us and teach techniques. He will really teach you till you understand. By asking us to pair up and doing certain exercise so that we will know how our body is suppose to move.
I like going for Freddy class too as his class helps me to enlarge my lines isolation and do things which i didn't think i could do it!! and its also a great way to lose weight as u will sweat a lot !!
SYF TRAINING TODAY WAS SLOWWW..
Due to playing of the games for the first 1 hour(bonding with sec 1s) which kind of extended a little to my SYF time. I manage to finish only 6 eights with formation!!! and i have 24 eights left. Now i am suppose to finish 12 eights per training and i only manage to finish half. Tomorrow i must try to finish as much as i can..
i thank the lord for creativity in coming up steps and formation so far and i pray that he will stays with mee!!! .. without him i seriously will be lost and choreograph something real lousy...
and i pray whatever that i choreo will somehow be relevant to my theme and looks contemporary(my student is not strong in that man)) hahaha!!!
ok that's all for today. My body is starting to ache .....
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I long for your presence!!!
i miss my baby!
Just same back from Ryan's lyrical & la course and am now doing my stretching...
YES I AM DOING MY STRETCHING!!!
Its been so long since i last really stretch, i have the discipline for anything but NOT stretching as its really really painful for me haha..I was born with short hands short legs short nerve etc etc hahah but still i believe i can be a better dancer than what i am now that why i really need to go for classes to strengthen my foundation extend my lines..
I really like learning from Ryan. In his course he don't just teach choreography but spend time to body condition us and teach techniques. He will really teach you till you understand. By asking us to pair up and doing certain exercise so that we will know how our body is suppose to move.
I like going for Freddy class too as his class helps me to enlarge my lines isolation and do things which i didn't think i could do it!! and its also a great way to lose weight as u will sweat a lot !!
SYF TRAINING TODAY WAS SLOWWW..
Due to playing of the games for the first 1 hour(bonding with sec 1s) which kind of extended a little to my SYF time. I manage to finish only 6 eights with formation!!! and i have 24 eights left. Now i am suppose to finish 12 eights per training and i only manage to finish half. Tomorrow i must try to finish as much as i can..
i thank the lord for creativity in coming up steps and formation so far and i pray that he will stays with mee!!! .. without him i seriously will be lost and choreograph something real lousy...
and i pray whatever that i choreo will somehow be relevant to my theme and looks contemporary(my student is not strong in that man)) hahaha!!!
ok that's all for today. My body is starting to ache .....
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I long for your presence!!!
i miss my baby!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
VALENTINE'S DAY
Had a great valentine's day celebration with my dearest. In fact we sort of celebrated it twice =). This is the first time i actually gave flowers to her!!!(cause she always think that its impractical to do so and looks funny holding the flowers and walk around) but still after hearing pastor's sermon i really ought to get one for her =) and thank god that she loves it!!!
I LOVE U BABY =)
Had a great valentine's day celebration with my dearest. In fact we sort of celebrated it twice =). This is the first time i actually gave flowers to her!!!(cause she always think that its impractical to do so and looks funny holding the flowers and walk around) but still after hearing pastor's sermon i really ought to get one for her =) and thank god that she loves it!!!
I LOVE U BABY =)
My imperfect life being make perfect by Jesus
THANK GOD for so many open doors and opportunities he has place upon my life..
It's through him that i really enjoy what i love the most which is dance.. remember in the past when i first started intensive training during project o times all the techniques i have pickup the choreographies that i dance to and most importantly the life long lessons that i have learn through kenny, ryan, gin, daniel and many other instructors/dancers. It was quite a pity that at that point of time i did not really cherish the classes that i had and did not really put in all of my hard work. if i did i would have become a much better dancer than now.
Not long after i completed the whole course i was given opportunities to teach in Dreamwerkz and under bevan. I taught in many schools such as bendemeer sec, bedok town secondary, whitley secondary. bedok view secondary, acs I and newlife community church. From all this schools that i have taught i learn a lot about different ways to teach dance,pick up new techniques, learn about choreographies, formation and many more.
Teaching for about close to 2 years, i am glad and proud to train up my students to dance well. i am especially proud of my bendemeer students. They went through a lot with me from my constant scoldings to my occasionally encouragement.
Now that we are preparing for syf. I am excited but in a way stress too as there are really high expectations to meet. At times whenever i look at my choreography i constantly ask myself whether it is good enough and the replies from my head will always be a big NO...so i have to always plug in these earphones constantly play the SYF music over and over again to see where and how can i make it better.. That's why i have so many changes all this while (HAHA SORRY GUYS). This syf have really stretch me in terms of my choreography!!!
This coming tuesday i have to show bevan the routine. I pray that everything will goes well and the students remember all their formation and steps =x.
The next thing that i want to do is also to train up newlife dancers. I can see that they are really passionate dancers whom love dancing. Just lacking in a bit of discipline and hard work. Nevertheless i believe in them and really hope to see them shining for god in their dancing one day.
And newlife church has also open a door for me that allow me to be a step closer to my vision. will be working on that for the next few months =)..
So all in all for the past 2 years, i cldnt have go past it without the lord. He has been my pillar of strength, my creativity, my provision, always guiding me and answering my prayers.
All the breakthroughs that i had especially in my area of finances is truly a blessing from god.
THANK GOD for so many open doors and opportunities he has place upon my life..
It's through him that i really enjoy what i love the most which is dance.. remember in the past when i first started intensive training during project o times all the techniques i have pickup the choreographies that i dance to and most importantly the life long lessons that i have learn through kenny, ryan, gin, daniel and many other instructors/dancers. It was quite a pity that at that point of time i did not really cherish the classes that i had and did not really put in all of my hard work. if i did i would have become a much better dancer than now.
Not long after i completed the whole course i was given opportunities to teach in Dreamwerkz and under bevan. I taught in many schools such as bendemeer sec, bedok town secondary, whitley secondary. bedok view secondary, acs I and newlife community church. From all this schools that i have taught i learn a lot about different ways to teach dance,pick up new techniques, learn about choreographies, formation and many more.
Teaching for about close to 2 years, i am glad and proud to train up my students to dance well. i am especially proud of my bendemeer students. They went through a lot with me from my constant scoldings to my occasionally encouragement.
Now that we are preparing for syf. I am excited but in a way stress too as there are really high expectations to meet. At times whenever i look at my choreography i constantly ask myself whether it is good enough and the replies from my head will always be a big NO...so i have to always plug in these earphones constantly play the SYF music over and over again to see where and how can i make it better.. That's why i have so many changes all this while (HAHA SORRY GUYS). This syf have really stretch me in terms of my choreography!!!
This coming tuesday i have to show bevan the routine. I pray that everything will goes well and the students remember all their formation and steps =x.
The next thing that i want to do is also to train up newlife dancers. I can see that they are really passionate dancers whom love dancing. Just lacking in a bit of discipline and hard work. Nevertheless i believe in them and really hope to see them shining for god in their dancing one day.
And newlife church has also open a door for me that allow me to be a step closer to my vision. will be working on that for the next few months =)..
So all in all for the past 2 years, i cldnt have go past it without the lord. He has been my pillar of strength, my creativity, my provision, always guiding me and answering my prayers.
All the breakthroughs that i had especially in my area of finances is truly a blessing from god.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
BRAND NEW BLOG
Hello guys!!.. gonna go back to blogging again =) a new address and a new look.. will try to post as often as possible here =)
my first post of the day - a simple but interesting story i got from my mail
There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...'I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, 'What you got there, son?' 'Just some old birds,' came the reply.
'What are you gonna do with them?' I asked.
'Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,' he answered 'I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time' 'But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?'
'Oh, I got some cats,' said the little boy. 'They like birds. I'll take 'em to them.'
The pastor was silent for a moment. 'How much do you want for those birds, son?'
'Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister.. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!' 'How much?' the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, '$10?'
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone..
The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.
Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.
One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'
'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.
Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!'
'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly. 'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked
'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'
'How much?' He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.'
Jesus said, 'DONE!'
Then He paid the price.
Hello guys!!.. gonna go back to blogging again =) a new address and a new look.. will try to post as often as possible here =)
my first post of the day - a simple but interesting story i got from my mail
There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...'I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, 'What you got there, son?' 'Just some old birds,' came the reply.
'What are you gonna do with them?' I asked.
'Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,' he answered 'I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time' 'But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?'
'Oh, I got some cats,' said the little boy. 'They like birds. I'll take 'em to them.'
The pastor was silent for a moment. 'How much do you want for those birds, son?'
'Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister.. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!' 'How much?' the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, '$10?'
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone..
The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.
Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.
One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'
'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.
Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!'
'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly. 'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked
'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'
'How much?' He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.'
Jesus said, 'DONE!'
Then He paid the price.
